I fell in love with him before i learnt my own name.

I loved his smile before i even knew how my own was

I fell in love with the way he spoke before i learnt to speak

I fell in love with the way he walked and soon i was walking like him

Not a day passes when i dont think of him

Today he maybe very far from me but yet he is close to me

He is my true support, the one that i look upto in the times of trouble knowing he would always be there with a smile an open hand and firm shoulders

Gosh he was the first person whom i learnt to love, to hate, to fight with, and to kick some ass with

He is my brother.

Undoubtedly the best any could ever ask for.

Anger or Pain?

I will not shed a single tear for you,
But, it will rip my heart out I fear.
I call out to you in pain,
Not knowing that I am fighting a lost battle.

I want to end this,And be done with it.
But, I just can’t bend myself to do it.
All I feel is anger for letting you do this to me
But ,failure is what I think I am.

I want to bellow in this pain,
All that I am able to do is become mellow.
What is the right thing to do?
All I can feel is fright.

I tried making a difference,
And you made me feel that I was a nuisance.
Oh,it hurts that you don’t care,
When all I do is bare my love for you

Have I failed in what I wanted to do?
Or, have you bailed on me?
What is the path that I should tread on?
So that I would never have to feel the pain again.

A Page In My Diary....


Dear You,

Its been so long since i spoke to you.

Its true that we message each other.But, its just not the same.

What happened to those times when we were in school, when we vowed that no living thing would ever come between us?

Why are we so spaced out on each other's lives?

You no longer tell me those small things which seemed important all these years

My attempts to make you talk makes no impact.

Why is it that suddenly everyone and everything else in your life takes more priority than i do?

Why is it that even after so long you dont tell me what exactly you feel about me?

And, I know all these are just speaking from my point of view, But I am trying to make my point when all that you do is maintain silence

And now, we've gone so far that the bond we shared is broken...

...Damaged beyond repairs and yet we continue to live like nothings wrong

..or maybe it was just me waiting for you to call, drop in to my place or spend time with me, but i guess that was just a part of yesterday

And, From tomorrow we walk our seperate ways remembering what we once shared and maybe sometimes cherishing them

love,
Darsa

* The "you" is written with someone in mind..and not just a random "you"*

Yeow!! One year over! one year of rantings,grumblings,happiness,birthdays,treats and everything..only difference is there is more to come :)

I Wonder

Yesterday seems so far,
A day filled with innocence and laughter.
All the happiness in the world at par,
I wonder where it all went.

Life has taken a different course,
Feelings have changed.
Changes are being forced on me,
I wonder if I would ever keep up.

Was I asleep during all this?
How, did it happen so fast?
Do I also take a leap?
I wonder if I should wake up

I walked the path as the same person,
People have evolved.
To be stalked by passion, fame, ambition
For this, I wonder how they dissolve true relationships.

These are the few of the many things I wonder about
They scare me; if I would ever do well, I ponder
I believe in values, relationship and friendship
I wonder if I would ever change

You and me..

My life was plain and simple,
When you came along
You found my dimple
And made me sing along.

You made my heart skip a beat,
With your energy
You made me tap my feet,
With no music.

Soon, You were mine,
To love, to hold and to cherish
You made me dizzy even without wine,
And all those memories still remain fresh.

Life with you is plenty of dreams coming true
It shines and gleams with all the happiness we possess
When we fight it fades faster than what its worth
I find it hard to suppress the tears that trickle down

When times get hard,
When our fights become larger than us
Happy times seem like a beautiful card
We just have to remember the love between us.

There was a life before you,
But, I doubt whether there would be one after you
I’ve taken you as you are,
All your imperfections make you the perfect one.

..It's all in the mind...

I stand by the waves,
i let my eyes gaze.
My mind has come to a sense of peace,
when i wish everything would freeze.
My eyes swept the vast expanse of the ocean,
it felt similar to my minds equation.
The ocean was calm, yet disoriented,
a slow sttorm begining to brew in my mind.
My thoughts are askew.
I try to get a grip,
but i feel it all slip.
I let it go for once,
with an ounce of pain,
without a bounce of regret.